oh god.

(reuters)- taliban says to engage in holy war against u.s. kabul (reuters) – afghanistan (news – web sites)’s ruling purist taliban movement has announced a jihad, or holy war, against the united states, according to a broadcast on the taliban’s voice of shariat radio monitored by the bbc. “i would like to tell my people that our jihad will be formally resuming against the americans,” the deputy chairman of the taliban council of ministers, mullah mohammad hasan akhond, said in a speech broadcast late on monday.

i wrote my update about the taliban declaring a jihad against the united states right after the first statement from the taliban wherein they did declare a jihad against us.
in a later statement they backpeddled a bit and said that the jihad would exist if the u.s attacks them. so my update was based on their original statement.
either way, it’s terrifying. and it’s especially terrifying if you live in a city that in the last week has received the worst terrorist attack in the history of the united states.
and if you live in a place where because of that attack you can’t breathe and the air is brown and your skin itches.
and if you live in a place where because of that attack you’ve got friends who are missing.
and if you live in a place that would most likely be the first place attacked again if a jihad were to break out.

taping up my doors to keep toxic air out of my home and then reading about the taliban declaring a jihad upon the u.s is a pretty sure fire recipe for going to sleep terrified.

living in nyc removes any academic aspect of this whole tragedy. i’m not looking for sympathy, cos we’ve all suffered, but please keep in mind that my friends and loved ones and i still live in a war zone. so we’re all shell-shocked and skittish and terrified.
thanks for your understanding.
-moby

the people whom i know in new york have been profoundly touched by the outpouring of sympathy and compassion from the rest of the world. apparently the american national anthem was played at buckingham palace yesterday while people stood by, crying. many of my friends in new york watched this on television and were crying, too. and when reports of international memorial services and moments of silence reach us here in nyc it makes us feel much less alone. as i said earlier, solidarity and friendship are the two things keeping us from losing it. so, thank you everyone. the fact that this tragedy has happened made most of the people i know deeply depressed about the human condition. the way in which you have responded to the tragedy has given us hope. thank you. -moby

the fires are still burning and the cloud of smoke smells even more toxic today than it did yesterday. the police have cordonned off my neighborhood, so i can’t leave my house because i don’t have any identification saying that i live here.
none of us has any idea what the ramifications of this are going to be.
it makes me nervous to hear george w. bush talking about ‘a war of good against evil’.
in the minds of the terrorists isn’t that what started this in the first place?

i just wonder when retribution ends. feuds and hatred have a way of perpetuating themselves for ever and ever. at some point it just needs to stop.

there’s a big hole in the sky where the twin towers used to be.
i had a thought last night, that maybe the twin towers should be rebuilt but with something connecting them at the top, a spire of sorts that would serve as a reminder of the unity and solidarity that we all need to have in the face of insanity and terror.
-moby

oh god.
when i wrote the earlier update the world trade towers were still standing and now they’re not. oh god.
everyone i know in new york is sobbing.
who has done this?
how can anyone ever justify taking a single life? the world is going to be different now. i’m sorry, but i don’t know what to write.

for those of you who are wondering if i’m ok. yes, physically i’m ok.
emotionally i don’t know.
they were there this morning and now they’re gone. i really just don’t know.
i don’t think that anyone living outside of new york can really understand what it’s like here. 40,000 people worked in those buildings. 40,000 people with family and friends. 40,000 people. and all the rescue workers.

i think i need to sleep. i don’t want to wake up to more screaming.

you want an update?
i’ll give you an update.

tonights simpsons: lisa takes the bus.  discovers isis orb is music box.  comedy ensues.
the isis music box music was really pretty.
someone should sample it and recontextualize it.

i support replacing ‘z’s with ‘x’s.
recontextualixe.
it looks cooler.

and, to the non-believers…i’m pro-napster.  i’m in favor of people listening to music.
i’m sorry i’ve been deleted from napster.

hint: try ‘mody’ or ‘mobi”.
just a hint.
mobi