in talking to my friends i’ve realized that one of the things, if not the only thing, that’s keeping people from really losing it is solidarity and friendship.
having said that i’ve realized that, for what it’s worth, i will stay here and read the boards and post my updates as i’ve been doing for the last year.
i was deeply hurt by some of the negative posts on my site, so much so that i felt the need to leave for a while and grieve and cope in private.
but i gather strength from the posts that you write, and i hope that in some small way i can offer something to the people who read my updates.
and i’ve realized that in the future i will avoid the negative posts from people who have chosen, for whatever reason, to hate me.
so after a very short absence i feel that i should be here. and in the interest of friendship and solidarity and for better and for worse, i’m here.
i want to be here. your community means a lot to me. thank you.
it’s raining now in new york. and although i feel terribly for the relief workers who have to work in the rain, it still feels as if we’re being cleansed.
this is a very intense rain, and it feels almost as if god is scouring manhattan. the first step in healing a wound is cleansing it. and as i said, i feel terribly that the rescue workers have to work in the rain, but the city and the sky over manhattan are being scrubbed. i overheard someone in a bar tonight saying ‘this rain is cleaning our souls.’ and it seemed right.
it’s been raining on this planet for over 4 billion years. there are universals and constants that will overcome whatever horrors we can come up with. flowers grow where concentration camps used to be. rivers wash away the blood from battlefields. the horror of the last few days will be replaced by hope and healing.
love,
moby